Communicating better...

i always had trouble communicating when i am feeling insecure, overwhelmed, and/or unfocused. Even though i know communication is very important, i sometimes find it hard to do. It is difficult for me to talk about things that are bothering me that could cause me to feel insecure or unfocused. And with the MPD, i do tend to get unfocused a lot. i will say i never forget my place as a slave, but sometimes i do get so unfocused, i can not keep track of things that i am supposed to be doing. my mind drifts a lot. One of my past Owners came up with a few things to help keep me focused. And of course Rachel has Her ways of doing so online. Which in a way i guess would be a form of discipline. Insecurity is also common for me, i just hate displeasing or failing and when i get unfocused, i feel as if i am doing so which sends me further in a drift.

There are many ways i can communicate with You when i am feeling one or all of these things. i can text, e-mail, or even do it using these blogs. i do not like being a bother, or acting to needy or it seeming like i just want attention, so i slack away and keep those things to myself. But it never goes well since You know me so well. i guess as a TPE slave, i am quite needy. With the guidance and structures and all that. And sometimes i feel that i am to much. i promise to work harder on the communication aspect of this. And to work on not letting other things get me so unfocused.