Subspace

Subspace is an interesting topic. i have read many different views on this. And i can not really say if i have been there or not. Only because some of the introductions to it explain how i feel when serving my One. No matter if it is a scene or not. i guess that would not be considered subspace. But one of the descriptions of subspace states that when experiencing it, the Dominant wins all control. And the sub/slave is vulnerable. i can not say i am always vulnerable but my One will always have the control no matter what state of mind i am in.

There was a few times where i have played where i felt more vulnerable then ever. i used to submit for a couple. Just during random times. There was no commitment or anything. No sex with either. But they did use restraints and a small flogger, some ice and whatever else. They did play, not to the point of an orgasm but it was definitely a wild ride. i was there but my mind was floating. i guess that could be consider subspace. But without the feelings and meaning behind it. There have been times online that i have felt somewhat like that, but i do not count that has being in subspace. What happens online is just sometimes what One does it helps my mind relax in real. Gives me something else to focus on instead of whatever it was i was trying to cope with.

i am hoping to one day actually feel the full affects of subspace. To see if i have ever really been there before or not. It is hard for me to say because i guess i did not know what subspace was then.